learning and waiting

i learned that...

there are consequences to things both said and unsaid,
and to actions done and not done

intentions however honest or even noble
can still be misconstrued and be perceived as malicious

people who know you well enough
are still prone to believing lies about you
when anger and jealousy take part

i learned all these in a short span of time,
drowning me in the process.
and now trying to understand and grasp reality
while waiting for a judge to reach its verdict

i can say everything i want
to prove my innocence
but deaf ears do not hear nor see reason
they only feel dark, illogical wrath

for now, my only ally is time
hoping it does heal wounds
wounds accidentally inflicted
by naive actions and honest intentions