after a week of sadness, confusion, heartache and anxiety, i woke up today decided to have a change of heart. i suppose it would be better to face each day with a smile and a sunny, positive disposition. maybe, it would help me better cope with the situation i am currently in and hopefully a positive attitude can one day bring good news and a better future. kinda idealistic ... sounds a lot like those motherhood statements we see and hear during positive reinforcement seminars... but at this point i don't have anything to lose. and besides, i already look like a panda with huge circles under my eyes, so a smiling panda for starters would be better than a mopey one. soooo, as dramatic as i am the past few days (my past entries can attest to that), i wouldn't let this day pass without writing another entry. ending my week or rather starting my week with a more hopeful tone =)... (my wish now is that i be able to have the strength to keep this up and not go into relapse ...)
its time
to stop moping and start coping
to stop crying and start smiling
to stop hurting and start healing
its time
to wait in hope rather than in anxiety and dread
to pray for better days than to blame the past
to live each day at a time and not hide from it
its time
to find strength in patience and understanding
to smile again amidst the hearts' chaos and confusion
to find joy again even in the simplest of things
its time to face each day with renewed hope
that one day soon everything will be alright
for now, i just have to start to wake up and breathe
for me to be able to laugh and love and once again live.
*image from http://www.flickr.com/photos/ashting/2143482916/
