i wish

i wish ...
i can make things better for you,
that i can hold your hand through tough times
that i can somehow ease your pain and hurt,
that i can help you move on and heal

i wish...
i can make things brighter for you
that i can make you smile and laugh
and enjoy the simple pleasures of life
like friends and easy conversation

i wish...
i can make you listen
that i can make you appreciate and understand
the things that you keep taking for granted
and the things that you choose to ignore

i wish...
you will realize that life is never what it seems
that what you think is right may not always be good for you
that life can be both fair and unfair
depending on which consequence or reward you deserve

i wish...
you will just look around you
and appreciate what you have
fighting for something may not always be the right course
especially if that battle has already been lost.

*image from http://www.sxc.hu/m/m/mr/mrinkk/505428_holding_hands.jpg

book ends

I recently finished two books : Beautiful Creatures by Kami Garcia and Margaret Stohl and Pride and Prejudice and Zombies by Jane Austen and Seth Grahame Smith.

Beautiful Creatures started out slow but the storyline was good. A gothic novel that has interesting twists and turns. Though quite dark, there are bits of humor injected that makes it less serious and light.

Pride and Prejudice and Zombies was quite a read. I haven't read the original Austen classic (since I am quite intimidated by the classics =P), but now I would like to grab one and read it (more to compare it with the zombies version). I really had fun reading the book =). There exists an interesting contrast between the writing style and what it describes (imagine a katana-wielding heroine wearing a long dress while battling and beheading zombies in the english countryside while speaking in the old english tongue). For me, this adds to the charm of the book. I can't actually wait to read the prequel = Dawn of the Dreadfuls.

You're in UP

original post from FB's Overheard at UP page... astig! =)

Dr. Jose Dalisay: "You're in UP 'cause you can think and speak for yourselves by your own wits and on your own two feet. And you can do so no matter what the rest of the people in the room may be thinking. You're in UP 'cause no one can tell you to shut up if you have something sensible and vital to say. You're in UP 'cause you dread not the poverty of material comforts but the poverty of the mind. And you're in UP 'cause you care about something abstract and sometimes as treacherous as the idea of a "nation", even if it kills you."

(posted by SJ San Juan)

from Overheard at UP

naaliw ako sobra sa entry na to as posted in Overheard at UP FB page:



may sumakay na 2 ale na medyo madaldal parehas.. tpos may ksakay din kming mga marine students yta..nagbayad ung mga marine students tapos cnabi nla na estudyante daw..tpos eto na nangyari...

UP STUDENTt: ma, bayad po isang estudyante..

ALE NA MADALDAL 1: tingnan mo sa UP, wla clang uniform. di tuloy mukhang estudyante.. tignan mo ung mga yun (mga marine students) pormal na pormal.. mukhang kagalanggalang..

ALE NA MADALDAL 2: oo nga, iho (knausap ung nagbayad na UP student) bakit ba wla kaung uniform? hindi tuloy kau mukhang estudyante.. mukha lng kaung mamamalengke..

UP STUDENT: (ngumiti) ah eh, WALA DAW PO KASI SA ITSURA PAGIGING ESTUDYANTE, NASA UTAK!(tawa ng malakas ung mga marine students, tinamaan yta.. syempre pati ako nkitawa na rin)

ALE NA MADALDAL 1: sabi sau wag kang magtatanong ng mga ganyan sa mga tga-UP, laging may bala yang mga yan eh!!

[by: Jiro Castellano]

start your week right ...

i got this off my friends' FB status:

We heal our minds whenever we let bad memories go; we heal our souls whenever we pray; and we heal our hearts whenever we forgive.

meaningful reflections

a friend sent me this SMS this morning. the message hit a number of spots and i found it to be truly meaningful.

Lenten Reflections:
1. Sometimes, God breaks our spirit to save our soul.
2. Sometimes, He breaks our hearts to make us whole.
3. Sometimes, He sends us pain so we can be stronger.
4. Sometimes, He sends us failure so we can be humble.
5. Sometimes, He sends us illness so we can take better care of ourselves.
6. Sometimes, He takes "everything" away from us so we can learn the value of the little we have left.

Happy Easter Everyone! :)

it's time

after a week of sadness, confusion, heartache and anxiety, i woke up today decided to have a change of heart. i suppose it would be better to face each day with a smile and a sunny, positive disposition. maybe, it would help me better cope with the situation i am currently in and hopefully a positive attitude can one day bring good news and a better future. kinda idealistic ... sounds a lot like those motherhood statements we see and hear during positive reinforcement seminars... but at this point i don't have anything to lose. and besides, i already look like a panda with huge circles under my eyes, so a smiling panda for starters would be better than a mopey one. soooo, as dramatic as i am the past few days (my past entries can attest to that), i wouldn't let this day pass without writing another entry. ending my week or rather starting my week with a more hopeful tone =)... (my wish now is that i be able to have the strength to keep this up and not go into relapse ...)

its time
to stop moping and start coping
to stop crying and start smiling
to stop hurting and start healing

its time
to wait in hope rather than in anxiety and dread
to pray for better days than to blame the past
to live each day at a time and not hide from it

its time
to find strength in patience and understanding
to smile again amidst the hearts' chaos and confusion
to find joy again even in the simplest of things

its time to face each day with renewed hope
that one day soon everything will be alright
for now, i just have to start to wake up and breathe
for me to be able to laugh and love and once again live.


*image from http://www.flickr.com/photos/ashting/2143482916/

learning and waiting

i learned that...

there are consequences to things both said and unsaid,
and to actions done and not done

intentions however honest or even noble
can still be misconstrued and be perceived as malicious

people who know you well enough
are still prone to believing lies about you
when anger and jealousy take part

i learned all these in a short span of time,
drowning me in the process.
and now trying to understand and grasp reality
while waiting for a judge to reach its verdict

i can say everything i want
to prove my innocence
but deaf ears do not hear nor see reason
they only feel dark, illogical wrath

for now, my only ally is time
hoping it does heal wounds
wounds accidentally inflicted
by naive actions and honest intentions