I Failed

I failed -

to tell you how much i appreciate everything you did for me

all the patience, help and advice, even all those times you told me off

just to make me listen and to let me know that i am wrong.

to let you know how happy i am that you are proud of me,

though i do not know exactly how you always knew what i did, small or big

you never fail to tell me how my accomplishments made you feel.

to tell you that going home to your home cooked meals

has always been something i look forward to everyday

i wasn't even able to tell you how proud i am when people tell me

how much they love your cooking

to make the most of the times when you were with me,

i guess i just assumed that you will always be there

a permanent presence in my life, someone who i never thought would leave so soon.

to tell you how much i love you,

there are no words that can convey how much i do.

i cannot even begin to express how thankful i am

that you were such a huge part of my life.

I failed to even see you one last time before you went away,
and until now, I cannot let go of the fact that I missed that. 

A void now exists in my life, and I guess that can never be filled by anyone else.

I just hope now that you are with our Creator, you know how much you mean to me.

- for Tatay Joe-